Me and my Friends~~

Today I played the school's piano.The piano is worst that expected. the piano has not been tune for a long time. the stirngs has no tension already. the sound is not very nice.Well, I have a public performance' in school.I don't care what peole there are think. I just play as much as I want. Lucky in the classs know that I play the piano. I hope that through that, I that someone can invite me to perform somewhere-public performance. I want to perform. After plaayingg the piano, I go back to class , I feel more refresh, don't know why. Well I play the piano during a very short 20 mins break. Today once I reach home, I went to play the violin. All of the sudden I have the urge to play even better. Though i am quite sleepy, but I still want to play the piano before I go for my forty winks.

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on Thursday, June 12, 2008 at 8:02 pm

Still keeping thinking of performing. Maybe I have not perform for quite some time so .... I don't know. I still keeping thinking of performing. I don't know why. This time I wantto perform on piano or cello or violin. After learning the violin, I feel that violin is quite easy. Maybe I have music background and I played the cello. Afterall I still wantto perform. Am I too thick skin? Anyway I don't have stage fright. I am not scared of anything. 3 days ago I went to the SSO website, I they want principle cello and cello and viola. I was excited, but I don't have the guts to go for the audition as the members there are freelance music teachers. They are all pro musicians. I don't dare to compare my skills with them. Wait till my skills are as good as them then I will join the SSO. These are the video cilps that motivates me to practice harder to reach my goals. I hope I can reach my goals before I start to go out to the working work working in the office etc. I don't want to work in the office like ordinary people. I want to perform and I hope I can do it. I must reach my goals.

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on Wednesday, June 11, 2008 at 7:09 pm

Suddenly gets depress. I want to play piano with symphony orchestra. I want to continue playing music. If I graduate, means I must get a job and I have to stop music. I don't want. I want to continue music. I love music so much. I hope I can get a grade 8 before I graduating from sch. In that way I can go and find a place of my own-freelance pianist. I just want to continue music I want to want to in a office and see the boss and computer whole day. I study because I want to have a skill. I want to perform on stage. I want to play the piano with the symphony orchestra. I know it is hard to do it. I want to. That is my biggest wish. After I got the news that I cannot go poly, I just feel that my love for music will just end like that . I cannot play music anymore or anytime I want. Right now I don't want anything, I just want to continue music, anywhere. I wish I can go to art sch like NAFA or Laselle. Right now I am learning violin, i hope I can join SSO i don't mind playing cello for the SCO even if I cannot play the piano. As long as there is music, there is life in me. This is me. I hopeI can find a way to continue music. i want to perform a piano concerto with a orchestra, just one concerto and I will have no regrets even if I am just a member for either one of the orchestra. A concerto will be one of my biggest achievement in my whole life. That's all. I don't know if I can fulfill my wish. I don't know I can or not, I just don't know. I just hope I can. I hope someone in a orchestra can pick me to perform a concerto with them.

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on Sunday, June 08, 2008 at 3:32 pm