Me and my Friends~~

That day I played the piano at my relative's house. Actually I did not want to play. I got sabotaged by my aunties and cousins. I don't the confidence to play as I saw how well my cousin played. She played so well, she wants to enroll to the NUS Yong Siew Toh Conservatory. So you know can imagine how well she played. Of course when I have the chance to play, I cannot lose out to her. Since she played classical music-Mozart. I got to play classical too. All I can think of at that time is Beethovan's Fur Elise and Joplin's Entertainer. I did not have any mental preperations. I knew that I can't play as well as her. As long as I can play something that will not make me at least lose out. In my mind I knew I didn't play well until yesterday, my brother and my mum said that I actually played well. I was so surprised. My mum remembered that I told her I can't play unless I have scores with me. She was surprised that I can play without scores and I can play that well. At least now I feel that I didn't waste my money on learning the piano. At least I can play something in that kind of situation. Wow!! I can't believe myself.

While I was playing my grandfather told them that I played cello. Everyone was surprised. Lucky me. There was no cello there, if not I got to play the cello for them.

My mum said that at least my relatives know that someone in our family can play something elegant thought we are poor. At least I showed them my skills. Well I am proud of myself at that moment.

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on Friday, January 30, 2009 at 5:41 pm

Today I went to my relatives' house. Talk a lot to my cousins. They told when what they work as etc. I get to show off my piano skills there too. My relative's house has a german piano. good piano. Europe piano. So much better than me piano. Get to play an expensive piano. Shiok!!

I think next year is going to be a better chinese new year. something interesing ahead next new year. Next year the whole family is going to celebrate new year in another country. To be Confirm. When time comes. Hope we can all go. If confirm, whole family of around 50 people meet will me at Changi Airport on new year. Nice man. Everyone is excited. All my cousins, aunties and uncles are excited. All of them are dream now. Hope this dream can come true. Never done this before with the whole family. This will be a very big outing.

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on Tuesday, January 27, 2009 at 9:41 pm

Today is new year eve. My grandmother cook a lot of food. She cooked neng bao, curry, wanton, beehoon, chicken soup and vege with abalone. The whole kitchen is in a mess. Everyone crowd into the kitchen to see how she cook.

Somehow I feel that this new year is going to be a very quiet new year. I don't know why. I think I am not in a very good mood. All I have in my mind is projects, tests and exam results and nothing else. Though next week I don"t have to go to school, but I called my team members back for project. We hope to finish the hrm as soon as possible. currently we are alomst done with it. We are left with around 70% of it excluding the powerpoint slides. Right after the neew year we are going to focus on OB and BBS. We are going on full speed for everything.

This year I am not inviting anyone to my house as all my friends are busy. I miss gwen, I hope she can come to my house and make some noise. Too bad, she is busy with work. YeeSheen and others are busy. I wish to hear YeeSheen play the piano. she plays better than me. Everyone is busy this year. I am busy too. Maybe next year will be a better year. I hope I can invite them all.

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on Sunday, January 25, 2009 at 4:38 pm

For the whole of last week I am so unlucky. First of all I scalded my fingers, then I have a sore throat, lastly with a block nose. Why am I so unlucky for the whole week?

I had taken my HRM test. I heard that Min ying talk in the test but I trust that he didn't cheat. I don't know how that SAINT is going to treat that matter. Anyway she is a very inflexible SAINT. Don't know how to describe her. Sometimes We really don't understand what is in her mind. Still her frequency level didn't change.

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on Monday, January 19, 2009 at 8:00 pm

Went to NAFA Open House. I went to ask about Diploma in Music Performance. Mine's very competitive as there are a lot of people playing piano. The intake is 40+ students per year for which includes all type of instruments, in short piano intake is around 1-4 students, flute 1-2, violin 1-2 etc up to 40. Can imagine how hard it is to go in to that school. As for the modules, I am very confident that I can pass them without any problems. History of Mozart etc and many practicals(playing piano). That's my forte. I love everything except that I may not have the chance to go in. Piano major is very competitive. Why am I always in courses that are extreme competitive. If I know it will be that hard. In the first place when my mum ask what I want to learn, I should have told her I either want Flute, Violin or Cello. I shouldn't told her I want piano. But afterall I still love piano. I also love violin but I think I can play the piano so much better than the violin and cello. my second best is cello then violin lastly flute. First of all if I want to go to NAFA,I will have to compete with around 100 piano students to get in to the school. Imagine 100 they only choose 4-5 students. Which means I got to compete with them in the entry exam. I feel that my chance is quite low.

Depress. Depress. Depresssss!!!!!

I want to cry. What if I fail my Biz Admin? What if I can't go uni? What am I going to do?

LIFE SUCKS!!!!!

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on Friday, January 16, 2009 at 7:36 pm

I am so lost today for project. I don't know what to do for the project. I lead my team in the wrong way. Sometimes I feel very lost. I don't know if I can do well in something. I pray all the time telling God to help me find a way. Help me not to feel so lost.

I want to go NAFA. I have to go to the open house to know the details of the school. All I know is I have to go for the entry exam/test. Once I pass then I can go in to the school. I wonder if I will have the chance to go for piano competitions and performance. I want to take Classical Catagory in piano for performing arts. I don't know how I am going to convince my mum if I tell her I am going to study performing arts after my diploma.

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on Tuesday, January 13, 2009 at 7:08 pm

My HRM lecturer is a SAINT. She loves to wear white all the time. Sadly her frequency level is high. After some time you will feel that your ears are ringing. Somehow she also can't differentiate the difference between frequency level and voice level. She thinks that I am trying to tell her to tone down. Anyway, going to that SAINT's class can be very tiring. The frequency level, the noise level of the class and the lesson can make us sleepy. I saw someone sleeping in class like nobody business. Next time I am also going to be like that. That SAINT wants to remember everybody's name. Letting her know my name, she will keep calling me, so I did not tell her my name. I told her my name is I Don't Know. Then she can't be bothered to ask me again. I will never tell her my real name. She is like one of our ite lecturer. Ms Ang. She always thinks she is having 'concert', go round asking people answer. You cannot let her know you name. Once she know your name, she will keep calling you. The SAINT is also like her. That's why I don't dare to let her know my name. I will try my best to keep my name a secret. Hope I can finish this module without her knowing my name. I want to finish this quietly.

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on Monday, January 12, 2009 at 5:46 pm

Today I had BBS lesson. The lecturer is like my banking teacher. They are like brothers. The teaching style and even the figure of the body looks alike. Happen that Sinyee also thinks like that. we did not talk about them until just now. She told me this person resemble someone I told her that too. Then we say out banking teacher's name together. Wow. Conicidentally we all have the same thoughts. Next week we are going to start all out projects, hope everything goes smoothly. Hope I can handle maurice. I make sure he do some work. In this world, nothing is free. If you want to work with me better do something.

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on Friday, January 09, 2009 at 3:38 pm

Went for piano class just now. I start playing classical music again. yeah!! I am playing Clementi's Sonatina in D-first movement. It is a very nice piece.I love playing classical music. Everyone says this is the hardest to play but to me it is another way round. i play classical better than jazz and pop. I don't know how to count the beats when playing jazz. As for pop, totally cannot make it. See that. I am always different from people. When people thinks it is easy, I will think it is hard. I am always the other way round. this time round, I really want to pass all the module. I want to go NAFA. I want to study piano-performing arts. I want to perform on stage. I hope I can go after my diploma. Hope I can pesuade my mum. I want to study Arts-Music. Well dance also can but I think music suit me better. I want to study diplom in performing arts-piano.

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on Thursday, January 08, 2009 at 6:57 pm

Today we had group discussion. Shukoor and me were so angry with Robin. He had chosen Maurice. Maurice never contribute in any work. Shukoor and me prefer Minying to Maurice. right now we just got to tolerate with him. The fact is that among the 5 members only 4 of us doing. Luckliy for the Ob and Statistic we are not working with him. right now we are waiting for Valerie and Ferlyn's reply on the group arrangement.

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